It's been more than a decade.. Iv struggled with severe depression.. For me it was a green eyed monster that tried to swallow me when I was alone.. By day I would have the smile that would light up someones world.. But in reality even though I lived in this world I just felt like I was  living in the dark and distant from life around. 

My parents turned to being born again Christians shortly after I was born... And that's how I grew up in church, went to services with them. Somebody gifted me a children's bible when I was small, I would just be mesmerised by that book and I was introduced to a world where I would be walking through the deserts and the garden.. There was something really intriguing and spectacular and so often times part of my troubled childhood was spent burying myself in a world that seemed so mysterious yet enchanting. 

My best friend in school was a girl called Reem who was a Bahraini Muslim  . She was blonde and beautiful. I had another girl called Shahani too who was Pakistani. Although I was an Indian and from Kerala I had no clue about my indian roots growing up in Bahrain. 

As a child I just loved reading and craft and anything that had alot of details and colour  . 

My eyes would be drawn to anything that would stand out in a room. And so on other days I would just spend time playing with dolls, collecting bits of paper.. ( That was my strange habit.)